Recently found myself starting to get talkative in class, and some of my classmates are saying I've split characteristics while gossiping dogshit about me...well, it takes time, a long time indeed from last november till most recently, to get into the mixture, I mean, to really talk something (in an acceptable flow) my mind tells me, it's most probably the English problem, actually. So, there's a christian girl, my classmate, nice, decent, great charisma, a rare species (for me ONLY, coz everybody's got diff taste) to find in this kinda era, but there's two big words: NON AVAILABLE written on her forehead, so for me, SERIOUSLY, that's the end of the story for the possibility of developing into a relationship, coz "Every nice girl in this world's been occupied, when you see one, you have to either snatch it or forget about it while hiding in one corner licking your wound pathetically" (it's one of my classmate's philosophy!) is never evA, gonna be my philosophy, I'll SCREW that straight away. And when I was explaining this, some people, particular some of my best friends said that I'm BULLSHITING, Oh that hurts! It means I'm just pretending I'm holy and nice and something like that. I'm who I'm and I don't pretend. Yes, I admit I'm quite close to her recently, but I'm close to the other Christian Indian as well, and what do say about that? Yes, we share our thoughts sometimes because I thought we're on the same page, sometimes ONLY, and we're never close to the extent that we're sharing everything or touching/poking each other physically like some of those in our class despite huge age diff. It's simply normal friends, with the potential to be good friends as I've put my friends' version's faith and feelings into it. Friendship within the border is acceptable and continuable as long as I have no stupid, out of my mind intentions, right? Here, I screw you one more time. And sometimes, like this occassion, the friendship distance between us is the most beautiful distance, and I'm grateful of that. There's possibility that I might be the better guy like some of you said, and in which I'm self confident enough to say that also, but, someone better in overall doesn't mean he's good enough to excel when it comes to LOVE also (even the smartest ass Einstein or Edisson I can't really remember, fail in his marriage OK? And I'm still a virgin in LOVE). A girl can be happier with someone you think is no better than you, because it doesn't matter how much LOVE you can give, it's...what love you can give according to her appetite.(This is MY philosophy, no copycats pls!) Ok, even if majority assume that I can 99.99% give her more quality love and what love she wants, I myself won't let her take that risk. NEVER gamble your current relationship which you're confident that it'll work out (that's my philosophy too). As what I've known, this LOVE thing is never gonna be 100% guarantee. To be honest, seriously, I'm happy for her, happy to see one of my close friends (I actually find it hard to find real friends in KL...) bathing in great happiness, my happiness in seeing her happiness OVERWHELMS the happiness of (couple) relationship we can possibly develop. YES, it may sound bullshit, BULLSHIT, but my Father in Heaven knows me more than anyone else, and time will judge my personality, my characteristics, my philosophy.
It's a normal day, wake up at 6am, prepare myself, take the damn lift, wait for the school bus, wobbling in the bus, arrive destination, collect a piece of free newspapers, went to subway, halfway ordering my subway breakfast, heard some sweet voice calling my chinese name_JIA LIANG...OMG, it's CONNIE, what the...I was too surprised to see her in office clothing knowing in the first place she's still studying in UK and she's supposed to enjoy her summer hols in Sibu...She's doing intern, hmm...I never knew law students can have intern also...Ahhh, it's always nice to see someone from my hometown, especially those who come back once or twice in a year. Was really good to see her well and really thought it's a big sacrifice to just have holiday in Sibu for 4 days only and after that have to come to this damn KL place to do intern ady, semangat la wei...GOD listens to my prayers in assuring my lovely friends all around the world_blessed, THANK YOU. Hope some brilliant scientist can come out with a solution with H1N1 asap. And YES, going back Sibu in 2 weeks time, hahaha...
1st things 1st, C.Ro off to Real Madrid's been the headlines, the most expensive deal in football history, to this, I'll say YES, C.Ro, you finally left after all your fucking nonsense and with 80 mil pounds + more room for improvement for W.Rooney, Nani, Marcheda, Manchester United will only get better. Yes, you're the total package, you can dribble the ball, fire 40 yards screamer, fancy your tricks like a pony, challenge Usain Bolt in sprinting (erm, but you don't really know how to drive a ferrari) bla bla bla, but what makes a player respectful is his professionalism, attitude and loyalty to his club and country. As a die hard fan of Manutd, I've read almost all the articles in UK since your confirmed departure and totally agree that it's the likes of all the potential greats like Rooney, Berba, Carrick, Tevez that sacrifice personal honours to make you the player you are today. Football is round and it's a pure team game. Leaving the best club in the planet, you'll never be better and I bet you'll be further downgraded than expected, cause in R.Madrid, you'll just be an "individual" fighting for vital role in the starting 11, no supporting casts, because I think most modern superstars are selfish for individual success, for some reason, I guess you've found a right team which is your dream team, because R.Madrid is made of superstars, it's never a team, and birds of a feather flock together. I'm sure all Manutd die hard fans are tired of your flirts with Real, and will be much more excited in the coming seasons who'll be the next to emerge as the X-factor to carry Manutd to more success.
Summer holidays' here, and it's the time every year when my best buddies go back hometown to enjoy gathering and...BOREDOM. Ahaha...Kevin's ady complaining that less than a week's return to Sibu since leaving last yr's Sept. Basketballers all there in My Centre bouncing around the court, but me, me, me's still here in KL studying? Arghhh...hate it. WHY? My stupid Uni's year end holiday's totally diff. Haiz...is all I can do.
Have been having lunch with my pretty secondary school senior, talked about many things...AND got to know she's in LOVE ady. Happy for her, Sad for myself...Being a guy that's been fancying LOVE for so many years, being what I can confidently say I'm ready to give the LOVE, I can only listen and enjoy every moment of sad love songs to suppress my desperation towards love, haha. Picked up an old song recently-笨小孩 where there's one part of the lyrics:“ 哦...他们说城市里男不坏女不爱，怎么想也不明白！妈妈说真心爱会爱得很精彩，结果我没有女孩！！笨小孩依然是坚强的像石头一块，只是晚上寂寞难耐！！！” 唱到这里我想哭也想笑， 想哭，因为唱的好像是我，想笑，因为如果唱的真的是我，那也只有无奈的自嘲...I personally think that I'm lucky to be surrounded with pretty girls with great personalities, but when it comes to BF vacancy, I'm not sure if I'm still that lucky, haha...Anyway, my faith is in my Father in Heaven, always and forever (but sometimes my patience drives me crazy, any idea what can suppress this factor? For loneliness, at least I can say in the other way round that I've freedom, but for patience, Haiz...)...
Looking forward for coming soon mid sem break and arrival of Manutd to play M'sia National Team(Rooney, Nani, Scholesy, Giggsy, Anderson, Evra, Vidic, Ferdinand, Marcheda you better come!!!), I'm sure it'll be one of the best moments in my life.
A guy whose virginity is still very much intact, lips' still virgin, cheeks' still virgin, hug's still virgin, "humingbird's" still virgin...tries his best to let hatred goes off along sunset, tries his best to be happy, tries his best to live life and be GOD-certified role model on earth.