The New Begining of that...but not the end of this!

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I know I know...

I know what I’m thinking, I know how love matters to me, I know my feelings thoroughly towards the one I love, it’s not that I’m scared of being hurt or get committed, I’m just not motivated to make that change yet (maybe just maybe one do need to get desperate to fall in love), the change that I thought will influence some big chunk of my life, it is indeed a big change for me(maybe I overthink the huge_ness of love)…(especially as you love someone, you no longer take full control of yourself, you’re sharing your remote control with someone else vice versa. When she’s emotionally disturbed, you’ll be influenced as well as you love her and care bout her, and most of all it’s because you seem like being a part of her ady, you can’t help it.

Maybe that’s why marriage in christianity means a male and a female love each other and 2 became 1 eventually, as you swear for the one time only in life, to GOD, that you’ll love her as much as yourself/even more, because she’s in you and you’re in her, spiritually unseperatable, neither physically nor mentally, but SPIRITUALLY!)…and how sometimes I wish I could dug a hole and buried my head into the earth like an ostrich. Wheewww…

Chinese valentine's day...

Had a great one, for the first time I wasn't "lonely" for valentine's day...

Blue blue blue...everything blue!

In life, sometimes, something, you just can't help it, you can't do anything...and in life, no one, YES, NO ONE can appreciate as much as you've done...Sibu, as I've observed so far, is a hideout for MOST rich people(meaning not all sibu ppl rich)...hmm, guess what friends around me are buying for chinese new year? Who cares? All you have to know is, they are all four digit_ed. Told my parents bout that as after meal gossip, end up telling me, you also got your D-SLR for four digits what! You're too influenced by those stuff. WHAT THE FUCK! How's is it fair to compare two different category stuff with two different intentions together? As much as I've been influenced(not affected!) by friends around me, I've not even bought any single item more than RM150, not even on big occasions like my 21st b'day when I really really liked that Gucci clip wallet and Toywatch so much. Fashion, I care, that's why I like those nice luxury stuff, but as far as GOD has made me, I'm able to resist the temptations of owning one of those stuff WILLINGLY, so can you please at least give me a compliment or an appreciation to me being a son_that've appreciated everything you two had given me (which your daughter doesn't know), knowing how hard is it for both of you to earn every single cent (which your daughter doesn't appreciate either) to make my life without financial worries. So sad for me when you compare a D-SLR (which I'm determined to develop a skill) to those of my friends who've bought 2 laptop and a desktop in 1 yr's timefor himself despite family financial crisis/gucci, burberry, bling bling watches whenever there's mood to buy/NO.30 badminton racket for his collection...etc. And then I realize what I'm lacking in life now, not LOVE, but appreciation. I'm guessing appreciation will drive me more energetically for the purposes in life. Maybe, just maybe, in another way of thinking, LOVE can provide me that 实实在在(realistic) appreciation. When I need a hug, she can give me a hug to "show" me she's there appreciating me, telling me from the heart at the same time: Dear, thank you for loving me, I'm very sure there's no other able to love me like you do...

Malaysian's "superb" creativity and...valentine's day.

1st...tell me, just tell me in case I'm not creative enough, how is this related to "menghapuskan ades" ? (for my friends studying overseas, m'sia's denggi cases' increasing this few months, so LRT began advertising "anti denggi") I don't know htf it is related, so, I'm saying malaysians seriously got no creativity, so, they went the other way round, creating something out of nonsense. Cacat betul. And there's more...

Hmm..."jangan bagi laluan" ??? EH, tak bagi laluan, macam mana dapat keluar? Apa ni lar, mangkuk!

This yr's best cny deco so far for the big guns shopping centre in KL is...1U, the cats are just so cute, they can even wave. Their christmas deco sucks but cny's so far's the best, as I have not explore all yet. Midvalley's not bad, theme's nth related to the big cat, hanged a bunch of dragonflies around.



Okok, bout valentine's day. （I can translate a banana vers for those who want to know what I wrote below, just leave a comment, LOL!）

今年情人节刚好落在大年初一，情人节？ 什么东西啊？终于来了个更大的日子掩盖了连续二十一年情人节贡龟的我的落寞。哪个亲戚在大年初一敢问我怎么没做逃兵过情人节去，我想我会说：老子我老早看破红尘，牙医退休后就当神父去（他们一定会说：哈？你老妈老豆会难过的！）/这个年代，好女孩稀有，不好找啊，多看看吧！我这当事人比你还耐心呢！你急什么啊？想急？尿憋久点不就急了？回答哪个，看当时心情！爱情的感觉对我来说还是很模糊。除了纸上谈兵的看了几本鸟书，有点心理准备之外，其他的都是问号。心里给情人那一块，是真空的，还没打开，跟爱过却分手了的人不一样吧？他们的，拆开来了，放了别人的心进去。后来，别人的心，离开了，盒子是再也不能倒带关起来，于是灰尘，黄沙沉淀，直到另一个别人的心住进来大扫除。